Mummy,

i would really wished for a hug from u.. someone made a super clean and deep cut to me today. i dunno what has happen and want to know..but i'm closing this chapter of my life. i guess u knew everything from up there right? and yes dealing with an emotional departure again. i dealt one physical which is u..now another 2 more comes this way. E i really dunno what happen but i won't pry but i do hope that he reads this and understands the pain of that deep cut..it was just so sudden like urs.. u could have let me know earlier about ur sickness but u chose not to..he could have told us earlier but he chose to do it at the most crucial time. and for JingYing..manage to send her off..but she just won't reply any of my messages..i guess i'm not that appreciated by anyone..and T..just told me ytd that she doesn't trust me at all.. all my so called Godsend stuffs don't ever last long. well now i strongly believe being along is still the best. All this chapters don last long anyway..so why start the pain when it could have been avoided from the start..